So, if you read my blog post yesterday, I am so very sorry. I must apologize because it was a moment in time where all the planets were revolving around Lindsey. And although it felt good to emotionally regurgitate all over you, I am so thankful it is over. The feelings have passed. The Lord has moved and done His thing in my heart, and I feel so much better. So much.
I remembered this morning my friend who has a 5-year-old daughter recovering in the hospital from pneumonia that nearly took her life. I also recalled my friend who, only 2 months ago, had a brain tumor removed from her head. As Mother's Day is approaching, I was reminded of my friend who had to bury her unborn child when she was only 6 months pregnant just 2 years ago. And while I believe it is certainly okay to vent and throw ourselves Pity Parties once-in-a-while, I am struck with the fact that Jesus NEVER once complained about His set of circumstances. Scripture doesn't offer us a dialogue between Jesus and His disciples where Jesus was emotionally purging all over His closest friends. The disciples complained plenty but never Jesus. Not once.
My friends I mentioned above have had to walk down horrible, hurtful paths in life. Yet, they are some of the most incredibly positive people I know. And if Jesus NEVER once vented about how mean everyone was treating Him, or how His feet were really hurting Him from all of the walking, or how ministering to others was really getting old, or the BIGGIE, complaining about His incurring death on a cross and the whole crucifixion thing, then can't I suck it up, myself?! My life is good, y'all. Real good. And the Lord had His gentle way of reminding me of that yesterday in a way that only He could.
And today, I am grateful. I am thankful. I am joyful. And I am so over myself.
Your grace really does amaze me. Your compassions really do not ever fail. They really are new every morning. Great is your faithfulness. Thank you for being my portion. Thank you for being ever-present in my life. Thank you for putting up with me and not giving up. Thank you for your lessons. Thank you for when life is good. And thank you for when life is hard. Help me to keep my eyes on what is unseen rather than what is seen. For what is unseen is eternal, you, my Father. And what is seen is so very temporary. And praise you for that. Today, Lord, set a guard over my mouth and keep watch over the doors of my lips. I ask this for when I speak to others and when I speak to myself. I have always been my own worst enemy. And nothing rocks my core more than buying into the lies I tell myself. I hate that I'm so convincing. Be the pursuer of my soul. That way, everyone else is let off of the hook from having to do just that. I love you so much, Abba. In Jesus' Name-Amen.
"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior..." -Isaiah 43:2-3a